Enough: "adequate for the want or need; in a quantity or degree that answers a purpose or satisfies a need or desire; sufficiently."*
The word 'enough' is one that has stuck with me for the best several years because of my favorite Bible verse (Matthew 6:24). But it has become so much more than just a word for me.
I tend to be a perfectionist and if you know anything about the enneagram I'm a type one for sure. I struggle with an inner critic and I thought this was normal until last year. When I started to learn that I had these subconscious expectations for myself and they were causing part of my anxiety and depression, a transformation began to take place. I started to learn what it looks like to truly trust God and learn to be ok with who I am.
This is not something I have perfected by any means. In fact, this past week or so I've been struggling with it more again. I kept thinking to myself, "Where is all this stress coming from?" and "Why do I feel so tired?" Now, this past week I've had a cold and several outside factors were causing some stress and emotions but it was more than just normal life stressors.
I'm starting to realize I fell into the trap of not believing in myself again and being that I am enough. God loves me as who I am today, right at this moment. I don't have to strive to become more humble or more put together to make Him happy with me. Sure those things aren't bad but they won't change how God sees me- perfect and righteous because His son Jesus died on the cross for my sins.
I am enough for God. God is enough for me; I don't need anything else in my life. Today is enough for today. I don't need to be more or do more, just do and be enough for today. Yesterday God was telling me, "Be yourself. Just be you." As cheesy or cliche as that sounds, it's so true. I need only to be myself, whole-heartedly and unashamedly.
I'm still learning to live in this truth but I wanted to share my thoughts and experience in hope that it encourages someone else who is struggling to be enough lately.
So don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today's trouble is enough for today. - Matthew 6:34
- e.k.
*definitions from dictionary.com
The word 'enough' is one that has stuck with me for the best several years because of my favorite Bible verse (Matthew 6:24). But it has become so much more than just a word for me.
I tend to be a perfectionist and if you know anything about the enneagram I'm a type one for sure. I struggle with an inner critic and I thought this was normal until last year. When I started to learn that I had these subconscious expectations for myself and they were causing part of my anxiety and depression, a transformation began to take place. I started to learn what it looks like to truly trust God and learn to be ok with who I am.
This is not something I have perfected by any means. In fact, this past week or so I've been struggling with it more again. I kept thinking to myself, "Where is all this stress coming from?" and "Why do I feel so tired?" Now, this past week I've had a cold and several outside factors were causing some stress and emotions but it was more than just normal life stressors.
I'm starting to realize I fell into the trap of not believing in myself again and being that I am enough. God loves me as who I am today, right at this moment. I don't have to strive to become more humble or more put together to make Him happy with me. Sure those things aren't bad but they won't change how God sees me- perfect and righteous because His son Jesus died on the cross for my sins.
I am enough for God. God is enough for me; I don't need anything else in my life. Today is enough for today. I don't need to be more or do more, just do and be enough for today. Yesterday God was telling me, "Be yourself. Just be you." As cheesy or cliche as that sounds, it's so true. I need only to be myself, whole-heartedly and unashamedly.
I'm still learning to live in this truth but I wanted to share my thoughts and experience in hope that it encourages someone else who is struggling to be enough lately.
So don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today's trouble is enough for today. - Matthew 6:34
But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God's special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. - 1 Peter 2:9
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in
persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. - 2 Corinthians 12:9-10
- e.k.
*definitions from dictionary.com
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